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Something I just found rather interesting... Mar. 22nd, 2007 @ 06:09 pm
Without further ado - something worth reading just because its kinda interesting in a 'i'll never ever need to know these, but incase someone asks me, i will be prepared' kind of way...

The Top Ten Most Deadly Poisons in the whole wide world.

1. Botulinum (ingested)
It’s hard to rank the lethality of toxins, but experts agree that botulinum – several orders of magnitude deadlier than sarin – is the gold standard. Your nervous system fails and you die in extreme pain. Works miracles on wrinkles, though.

2. Ricin (ingested or inhaled)
Made from the lowly castor bean, ricin causes respiratory and organ failure, followed by death within hours. Even chewing a few beans can kill you.

3. Anthrax (inhaled)
Cutaneous exposure can kill, but the most deadly, panic-inspiring form of anthrax is inhaled. It starts with flu that doesn’t get better – then your respiratory system collapses.

4. Sarin (inhaled)
Sarin is one of the deadliest nerve gases, hundreds of times more toxic than cyanide. Just one whiff and you’ll foam at the mouth, fall into a coma, and die. Originally synthesized for use as a pesticide, it was outlawed as a warfare agent in 1997.

5. Tetrodotoxin (ingested)
Found in the organs of puffer fish (the famous Japanese delicacy fugu), tetrodotoxin persists even after the fish is cooked. If the toxin is consumed, paralysis and death can strike within six hours. Up to five Japanese die from badly prepared fugu every year.

6. Cyanide (ingested or inhaled)
Cyanide exists in a number of lethal forms that are present in nature or easily manufactured. Exposure leads to seizures, cardiac arrest, and death within minutes.

7. Mercury (inhaled)
Low levels of mercury are not especially toxic to adults. However, inhaled mercury vapor (the metal starts turning to a gas at room temp) attacks the brain and lungs, shutting down the central nervous system.

8. Strychnine (ingested or inhaled)
A common pesticide, strychnine isn’t as toxic as other poisons on our list, but it gets style points for causing one of the most horrific deaths of all: Every muscle in your body spasms violently until you die from exhaustion.

9. Amatoxin (ingested)
Derived from the death cap family of mushrooms, amatoxin destroys your liver and kidneys over several days. You remain conscious – and in excruciating pain – until you slip into a coma and expire.

10. Compound 1080 (ingested or inhaled)
As an animal poison, compound 1080 proved a little too effective: The bodies of creatures killed with 1080 remain poisonous for up to a year. Odorless, tasteless, water soluble, and without antidote, 1080 blocks cellular metabolism, leading to a quick yet painful death.

Chopped from: Wired Magazine
http://wired.com/wired/archive/14.08/start.html?pg=4



When it rains... Mar. 20th, 2007 @ 09:32 pm
I know - two posts in such short succession is unheard of - but i REALLY enjoyed this.

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HURRICANE APPEAL!!!

A major hurricane (Hurricane Shazza) and an earthquake measuring 5.8 on the Richter scale hit Broadmeadows in the early hours of Thursday 15 Feb. 2007 - with its epicentre in Johnstone Street, Broadmeadows.

Victims were seen wandering around aimlessly, muttering "Faaackinell".

The hurricane decimated the area causing approximately $30.00 worth of damage.

Three areas of historic burnt out cars were disturbed. Many Locals were woken well before their Centrelink cheques arrived.

The Hume Leader reported that hundreds of residents were confused and bewildered and were still trying to come to terms with the fact that something interesting had happened in Broady .

One resident - Tracy Sharon Smith, a 15-year-old mother of 3 said "It was such a shock, my little Chardonni-Mercedes came running into my bedroom crying. My youngest two, Kevyn and Jahyson slept through it all."

Apparently looting, muggings and car crime were unaffected and carried on as normal.

The Australian Red Cross has so far managed to ship 4,000 crates of UDL to the area to help the stricken locals. Rescue workers are still searching through the rubble and have found large quantities of personal belongings, including Health Care Cards, jewelery from Klein's, and China from Big W.



HOW CAN YOU HELP?

This appeal is to raise money for food and clothing parcels for those unfortunate enough to be caught up in this disaster. Clothing is most sought after - items most needed include: baseball caps, tracksuits, singlets (blue or white), Reebok boots, and moccasins.

Any other items usually sold in Priceline or The Reject Shop. Food parcels may be harder to come by, but are needed all the same.

Required foodstuffs urgently needed include:

Microwave meals, Baked beans, Ice cream, Chips, Fizzy drinks.

Donations:

$15.00 will be taken to buy a packet of winny blue 25s and a lighter to calm the nerves of those worst affected.

Neighboring Glenroy Uniting Church has canceled their local "Nativity Display" due to their inability to find three wise men or a virgin.

Please don't forward this to anyone living in Broadmeadows or Glenroy



... Oh, stuff it, they won't be able to read it, anyway!

I'm Still Not Dead! Mar. 20th, 2007 @ 08:28 pm
Im alive and well and I still read peoples blogs incase you are wondering...

Currently uni like crazy, about to finish my advanced diploma of advertising, then just 6 months of a marketing diploma, and I go straight into third year of uni doing some business related stuff. Maybe more marketing or advertising...

Gym like crazy - I weighed 82 kilos when back from Thailand, the heaviest in my life so far, but now im down to a svelte 74 kilos and hitting the gym at least 3 times a week doing lots of weights. I have deltoids and tricepts, and the beginnings of a six-pack and the enviable 'V' that those supermodel guys get down into their pants. Once I have that my life will be complete and I can retire.

Single life is fun, not so much for the picking up aspect, as the being single, learning, growing, and focussing soley on myself. I feel fantastic about myself.

Im planning on doing a personal training course soon, and starting up a small business doing the training part-time for family and friends for a bit of pocket money... maybe branch out to friends of friends. Money money money. Any suggestions for company names?

(Yes, im well aware that I actually need a qualification before i even start one up - but who says I cant plan ahead?!)

If I like anyones, I might trains you up for cheep or freeeeee!

Also I think the coolest man alive is Paco from Bloodsport. (A small roled character in a cheesy 1985 Van Damme movie who does Thai kick boxing and is just cooler than anyone else ive ever seen. He kicks ass while being crazy/cheap. Mwaahaha!)

Im not dead Nov. 27th, 2006 @ 10:13 pm
Holy crap... I might have just bought a boat. Waiting 1 day 21 hours to see if anyone outbids me on ebay.

Also - im not dead. I still read peoples stuff - seems like a lot of people have dropped off the face of the planet.

Having a great time being single since i stopped talking to B. Just makes life a lot easier.

Got girls chasing after me - about damn time!

Spacey Space Sep. 14th, 2006 @ 11:46 pm
Im gonna give her more space - shes confused as hell within herself and thats disrupting my centered gravity.

Shes coming up to sydney with me - hopefully because she wants to spend time with me. Hopefully because she feels all these wonderful things for me.

I dont want her back in a relationship yet i dont think- i just wish she knew what she wanted... its hard to know what to feel when the other person is so all-over the place.

I guess i'd be open to a compromise. I dont know what.

Massive surprised planned for her in sydney. Bigger and better than anything in the past ever. Shes going to have a heart attack. A good one.

I am just looking forward to spending time with her for a decent few days... i think they will help us work out our feelings.. one way or the other.

Like previously mentioned - i am over the whole fighting to get her back every waking minute.. I need to concentrate on me more so I can improve myself to awesome levels... I doubt i am ready to jump into the same old relationship... if we got back together i want it to be brilliant. Superb. Just how it always should have been. More independent, more spontinaity, more socialisation together and separatley.

I will chase her though... but I am not going to hold on to my breath. When shes ready to be chased I will. For now - i will laugh and spend time with my best chums and work out, and work my arse off at uni.

Thats all there is!
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» Steve Steve Steve
Ive voiced my despair over Steve's passing. I thought he was a magnificent man. He was just brilliant. He might have been at times possibly criminially insane, he loved his work, family and above all else the environment. He was an impressive conservationalist, and I hope that people continue to follow his good example and protect that which cannot protect itself.

I find it interesting that he got killed by the most random and unlikely animal ever. Only beaten by a rabid snail as an unlikely animal to die from.

Rest in peace Steve. Watch over your family and the environment. You shall not be forgotten.
» Clear Air? How could this be?!
The only way this day could have gotten better was if I could have gone to the gym as well.


I feel really bad because I missed going to the gym on monday on account of running late and having to jump pretty much into the pool (minus a few bench presses and tricep dips), and I was meant to thrash myself today to get myself really really sore. But no such luck!


Other than my angst about missing the gym, I doubt I could be in a better mood in the current situation.

I saw B today - we talked and kissed and cuddled and just got close again. We both still recognise we need the break. I know I am enjoying myself too much to hop off this train straight away - I think I have much more to learn about myself. But I think in the past week with the pain and shit storm ive been sitting in, ive learned some of the most important lessons ive needed on this break. B already learned them at the start of the break, so she moved on to different things.

I know what needs to be done, and Im looking forward to doing them.

I am still deeply in love with B, and from what she tells me, the feeling is 100% mutual. I needed to hear that so badly. Sounds funny, but now that I know I have that grounding, that support, that she is backing me up, and isnt running away, I can finally go out there and just feel free to do what I want. I am still not centering myself around picking up. I am up for good times with my mates! Drinking up a storm, lots of gym stuff and lots of laughs. Any girls can be very much on the sideline for me. Its just not that big of a deal to pick up - fact is most sex you get in singledom sucks.

I think it would be the height of arrogance for any man to imagine he can press a womans buttons easily first time every time. Sure you can get lucky, but at the end of the day - the whole point of picking up is the experience of picking up as opposed to the actual sex. 

Ahh. The air is clear now. I know where I stand. I know where she stands. I will catch up again with her in a month or so and we can see where to go from here. If she wants me, she can call me and I wont be bugged - but I figure the ball can be in her court because she has stuff she really needs to do with me as far back in her mind as possible.
That all said and done, if I need her, I still know her number and vice versa.

*Raises imaginary Beer*

Cheers to Progress!
» And now for something completely different.
Im doing this post in list form because i always forget something, and hopefully I wont.

B:

After the recent aggro, Ive managed to make peace with this woman. She can do what she wants, and for now, I dont want to know. She has to learn about herself, and we did agree to everything that has currently happened... its not a very gentle and easy thing, but its not a bad thing either.

Im just moving on - no bad feelings, no regrets. I just need to let go of the B i knew. Shes gone. Gone for me at least. I will either meet up with a new improved B in a while, or I wont, and I will find someone else and fall madly in love with them. This is life. Ya win some, ya lose some. Good luck to her - I hope she does find what shes looking for.

Step-Dad:

Today I had dinner with Step dad and it was simply lovely. We managed to chat up a storm as usual - this man might be classed as a step-father, but hes been there for me since i was a wee lad of nought but a few years old. He is as good as a step dad. We chatted about everything, B, Life, Money, the upcoming fossil fuel crisis. It was nice because he initiated the meeting after I gave up trying to call him. This is a step in the right direction, and I also get the feeling that he wants to help me financially through means of a little bit of an allowance, merely matching what my mum contributes. Which is fair enough seeing as he has considered me a son for so long, it would be remiss of him not to really.

Uni:

This is going well - I have good supportive friends here - fast becoming very close to them. Im going to Trivia night tomorrow night with one of them actually - allthough she probably doesnt know this yet! She will when I see her tomorrow!

The work is piling up - but this isnt unusual. I always get on top of it - its a bit of a challenge really.

Friends:

Ahh - what else could be say but pure bliss? Im getting super close with all my mates again, and bonding with new ones. Its just perfect. Im just so surprised how everyone in my life, from everywhere and every stage has popped out of thin air and started wanting to catch up - its almost bizzare, but either way im truly thankful for it. They've helped me through my dark times and I hope to be able to repay them individually when they need it in the future.

Life in General:


I have so much going for me at the moment, B truly isnt an issue. There is so much to keep me occupied I will just dive in there. Im hitting the gym like crazy and doing Creatine Supplements to get me bigger and stronger! All my mates are constantly inviting me out to places, if I didnt reject them, i'd be going out seriously every night. This is nice, but unrealistic, im not letting the rest of my life go to shit just to get out - I will take that part the slowest, im not gagging for sex, and when I do find it, i want it to be good, and feel right and relaxed. Im fussy. I cant help it. Fuck it, I dont want to help it!

All in all, at the moment, I should be deleriously happy. And I will be, and I hit rock bottom over the past week. There is only one way to go from there. UP UP AND AWAY!!!!
» dotdotdot
Im sore all over, inside and out. This is good though - new muscle and new strength comes from soreness.

Saw B - she lied to me - told me she hadnt fucked anyone yet - but she eventually guilted herself into telling the truth because she couldnt handle it. Fuck her.

I took her out to dinner, sent her on her way, told her I loved her.

Do I though? I dont even know any more.

Every second that goes by really just strengthens my resolve in wondering whether i even want to get back with her.

This whole break was about improoving ourselves so we can stay together for longer.

Her priorities revolve around slutting herself out to some band-fuckhead. My priorities revolve around improoving myself. 

I still feel love, sort of, but right now - it is insignificant to many other stronger emotions - whether this means it has diminished, or whether it means the other emotions are just incredibly powerful, I dont know.

I still have a few tricks up my sleeve to make this 'me' time all the better without her. Im looking forward to doing them soon.

Despite her saying she was happy, I was struck full-force on the fact that she is much more alone than me. Much more. I almost felt sorry for her, but then I remembered last friday night when I was chatting to my best mate about the world, she was fucking the wannabe-rockstar thinking whatever the hell she was thinking. Probably thought she was a porn star. Whoa. Well done player, you fucked a guy. Congrats. Hes ugly.

Also she is hanging out with an old mutual friend. This mutual friend is a fucking idiot. I hope they keep eachother happy. This mutual friend will fuck her over. Its only a matter of time. She fucks EVERYONE over.

So in summary - She fucked another guy, doesnt bother me too much per se'. It just makes me feel a lot more superior to her. Why? Because I didnt have to lower myself to doing something like that. She kept pushing me - I know why. She wanted me to do it as well so at least she didnt feel guilty about it. Fuck her. Im better than that. She can fuck who she wants to fuck. I dont feel a loyalty to her any more, because frankly, I dont feel it from her, despite her reassurances.

She can do what she wants. Chances are despite a little annoyance like now, I will be much happier. I think shes going to have a big shock in a little while. A big one. She doesnt know everything. She doesnt see everything, and she doesnt read between the lines.

That is all for now..

Also - everything other than B is roses. Seriously.
» Snakes on a Plane
Is it just me, or does the whole concept of the movie Snakes on a Plane seem absolutly ridiculous?

I saw previews for it - and it looks like the worst movie ever. Ever. I thought I was in a warp where bad taste was back with a vengence and plotless 80's movies are back in vogue where they pretty much mix up everything middleclass america is afraid of in one movie.

You have:

Snakes
Heights
Guns
Black people

Thats a recipe for total destruction according to the films producers.

Sam Jackson is usually tied with mediocre but totally watchable movies... I think the bottoms dropped out from this one.

Worst thing is, i've already heard Sam-the-man is considering a sequal.

What a joke.

I LIKE MAKING THE MOVIES!!! I GOT THE SNAKES AND PUT THEM ON THE PLANES!!! NOW THE BLACK PEOPLE ARE IN THERE SWEARING ALOT!!! THE WHITE PEOPLE ARE SAD BECAUSE THE SNAKES ARE WEARING THE HATS!!! THE BLACK PEOPLE CALLED THE WHITE PEOPLE CRACKER!!! NOW THE WHITE PEOPLE ARE ANGRY!!! GO AWAY YOU WHITE PEOPLE!!! STOP BEING SAD ABOUT EVERYTHING!!! GO AWAY YOU BLACK PEOPLE!!! STOP SWEARING AT EVERYTHING!!!

...errr... yea.
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